Saturday, July 19, 2014
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Seriously me!
I have decided that I need to be able to express myself! Through my words and writings I know that people will be able to better understand me and my life!
I have found that the anxiety that I experience to be uncontrollable. I have learned to live my life through pills even though I know the out come and affect! There has to be a way to deal with life without everything feeling like a movie or a dream! Often I find myself looking up at myself in the mirror and saying to myself Jas this is real life. There are people everyday who deal with the same issues I've dealt with in life and they still walk around smiling with there heads up! Then there's those who have allowed their past and what they've been in to completely consume them and they become drug a addicts and prostitutes who can't identify that they cause their own world winds!
I have learned through my writing people can understand the mind of the mental and how we get to the Conclusions we come to! Although many will never understand the life of the Bipolar Beauty unless they have dealt with depression and borderline personality disorder straight on! I can still shed light on the things and hurt that we experience! To help others who are dealing with or know others who are dealing with the same issues!
In the mind of the mental nothing ever seems like reality but often like a dream! Can you imagine watching your selves on television and watching yourself and the things you do in third person! At time I close my eyes and shake my head hoping that I will wake up or snap out of it but when I open my eyes I'm in the same place!
I can't imagine waking myself up and my head not feel cloudy or confused! I however know that I still have to channel my feelings and emotions into other tools that can turn the negativity in my life into something positive instead on me drowning myself in my own pity and sorrows!
This is just the beginning to the words that come out the mind of the mental and the start to better helping and triggering my personal growth. I need to be able to vent, and breath, not too mention reduce the anxiety that is plaguing my body and hammering on my chest!
~Bipolar Beauty
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